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February 23, 2017

FROM THE BLUR

This morning, social media reminded me that on this day, three years ago, I was in China. I still remember looking out of the window from my hotel room in Kunshan to see this disgusting pollution. I definitely did not want to get up or go outside. I don’t know if I have ever admitted this, but I went a step beyond that. I took out my personal computer and started drafting a resignation letter from my job haha! And then I took it a step beyond that and started drafting a fictional story of a woman who quit her job and moved to an island (I think it was Fiji or Bora Bora haha!) to start a jet ski business with the love of her life (who she met on the island). Haha!

My imagination runs away with me sometimes ;) I remember that I had to stop writing the story before I actually sent off the letter haha! (True story.) I felt intuitively that it wasn’t time to move on from that job yet.  It just so happens that a year (and a month) after this trip to China, I ended up writing what was to become my first book during a work trip around Asia. I would not trade the experience of writing and publishing my book for that extra year of work. Or the extra year it took me after writing the book to move to an island ;)

What I mean to say with all of this is that I have learned that God’s timing is often different than our own. Our subconscious, spirit nature gives us glimpses into the future and the past because it is not bound by time.

Our spirit is not bound by time.

(Author note: I’d actually considered making this thought another post, but I’m just going to flow with it ;)

I remember doing a sound healing session with my friend Christina in LA (thanks to my bella, Sara, for introducing us!). This was a unique treatment…I will try to paint a picture: I was laying on a bed, surrounded on both sides by very large chimes that ran beyond the length of the bed. It was sort of like being in the middle of a xylophone.  My eyes were closed as she gently activated the chimes and somehow the sound carried on infinitely, without end. I felt myself float away.

I don’t know how long this went on, but at some point she gently said, “Ok, now it is time to come back into your body.” I literally felt myself obeying and coming back into my body. I’d felt this sensation before during acupuncture treatments (when the light was turned on, after being in the dark for an hour haha…a much more dramatic welcome back to one’s body), but I’d never really thought about it. I was so intrigued that I asked her to please expand on what she just said.

Christina explained to me that the sound was infinite…just like our spirit. She encouraged me to reflect on that infinite feeling and use it to understand my true nature. Wow.

I’ve explored this more in the context of dreams, but I have much more to discover :)

So in an attempt to connect and complete this post (haha) and bring things full circle, I’ll just say that we must have faith in timing and realities beyond our current understanding. I always appreciate when Steve Jobs said that you cannot connect dots into the future…you can only connect them when you look back. Circumstances and situations somehow came together to create a reality that you could not have originally imagined. And oftentimes, one could say the experience is even better than imagined :)

Having faith in the way things are allows one to have patience as things come together to achieve the highest good. Spirit is infinite, and so, too, are the possibilities for our lives. Do not worry. Instead, live the moments and do only what you need to do, when you need to do it. Life will take care of itself, because an infinite Source is taking care of life ;)

 

when tired, sleep.

when hungry, rest.

fools will laugh at me,

but the wise will know what I mean.

 

Namaste.

 

Photo source: My mobile phone in China, Feb 2014

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February 18, 2017

NEW START

Even when the familiar is not good for us, it can become comfortable simply because it is a known quantity (the unknown somehow seems scarier). We somehow adapt and learn to live in dysfunction. But this can only happen when we have an unclear vision of who we really are.

I believe that we are all stars…made of stardust…with the glorious and divine light of our Creator within, causing us to shine. But when we don’t know this light within, we stumble in darkness and confusion. We cover our own shine with layers of insecurity and doubt.

because you would not save yourself,

the universe intervened 

When we are not quite ready to save ourselves — because we do not yet know the Light of our being — sometimes we are gifted a circumstance or situation that is much like being given the key to unlock your prison cell. We realize this is not what we really want and we have a chance to free ourselves.

But you have a choice: do you try to stay because you are accustomed to your limited life? Or do you take a chance to rebuild and shape the life you only dreamed of?

Starting over can be uncomfortable, at first. All of a sudden, you have an opportunity to focus all of your energy on yourself, but your mind desperately tries to cling to the past. You somehow still have hope that you can fix that broken situation…but you know better. You’ve already tried that a million times. You try to convince yourself that you were happy there, but you know you weren’t.

Don’t look back…you are not going that way.

At first it is hard to comprehend the reality that you will be happy again. The feeling of loss can be consuming. But you must recognize that what you are really losing by leaving a dysfunctional situation is fear, stress, and unhappiness. What this new start is opening you up for is love, peace, and freedom. And this happens when you love yourself enough to know that this dysfunction is not life. It happens when you recognize that you are too precious to ever suffer. You understand that you are the very heartbeat of God.

So everyday, I’d love for you to recognize your beauty and your divine gifts and find three things that you love about yourself. Then add three things that you’re grateful for. And then tell yourself that you love YOU! Hold yourself if you must, but know that you are enough. Put your health and happiness first, surround yourself with only love and positivity, and watch yourself transform magically. You will become whole (you are already perfect and whole as you are, you just have to see it too!), even though you may now feel like you are permanently broken (you are not!).

And whole people change the world simply because they have changed themselves (through loving themselves). So don’t have fear of the unknown. Don’t worry about giving up what you now think is comfortable. You know there is more out there for you. You know that you don’t want to suffer anymore. You know that you don’t want to live a life of limitation.You are a divine creation and unique emination of God. You are beautiful, brilliant, kind, compassionate, and deserving of every good thing. You do not deserve some kind of karmic punishment for wrongs you think you’ve committed. That has already been forgiven. God is for you, the Universe is for you, and everything is happening for your highest good. These circumstances and situations are enabling your evolution, you must simply choose to rise.

All that you must do now is lay down your burdens and take flight, love. And never let anyone or anything try to pull you back down ;)

 

For my Lex  <3

 

 

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February 14, 2017

ONE DECISION AT A TIME

While it is very easy to get caught up in “what if” scenarios, there is only ever one decision in front of you at a time. And we can only ever make the best decision at the time with the information that we have.

In this regard, I think regret is largely shaped because we know that in those decisions (that we later came to regret), we ignored our intuition. We didn’t listen to our spirit. But this can be easy to do because the spirit comes to us as a whisper. Doubt, public opinion, fear, and insecurity shout at us.

It is for this reason that I came to realize that it is better for me to make big decisions with significant time and space. That may even mean being far away from the person, place, or situation I am considering.

But, whatever it is that you are working through, be gentle with yourself; recognize that you have only one decision in front of you; give yourself time and space to consider that decision; and, most importantly, listen to your spirit.

Namaste.

 

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February 7, 2017

THE PATH

I was reminded by social media that I have made some big announcements on this day in history…last year, I announced my move to Africa…in 2015, I met Oprah…and in 2013, I launched this website!  Perhaps every three years (2014, this year) I need rest haha But I am happy to report my good health :) A true blessing.

So, all of this got me thinking about one’s life path. I am sure that I could not have predicted my living situation back then (outside of a joking declaration that I was going to sell everything and move to an island haha). I had a feeling that I would write a book, but I didn’t know when. (I have a feeling that I will write another book, but I don’t know when.)

While I think it’s true that our current actions create our future situations, I think we tend to put too much pressure on ourselves. I’ve found that inspiration comes when it wants to…we just have to be ready for it. I think that readiness is an openness to something we had not previously considered that just feels like the right choice.

Now whether we judge that choice to be “right” or “wrong” in the future does not change the fact that choice was need for our growth. Something that we experienced was necessary for our evolution.

Sometimes, I find myself getting caught up in trying to make plans for the future, but days like this remind me that the future takes care of itself. It leads us beyond where we could have imagined, if only we remain open and thankful. That sense of gratitude allows positive vibes to manifest. We are then able to channel the limitless potential of the divine that lives within us all.

Namaste.

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February 1, 2017

BUSYNESS

I used to say that it’s better to be busy than bored, but I’ve changed my mind. I’ve decided that boredom is a luxury haha It means that you don’t really have to be anywhere and you don’t really have to be doing anything. What freedom!

We live in a time where there are so many distractions that sitting still seems unproductive. There are always shows to watch, news articles to read, or activities to get lost in. I was speaking with two lovely ladies from London during lunch today and one commented that we have forgotten the simple joy of relaxing and listening to music. Too right. Though we met in Cabo Verde, both of our home countries are undergoing massive political changes. Perhaps more than ever, relaxation is a necessity for our countrymen/women!

At the root of it all, our minds love to be busy. Busyness gives the mind purpose, so there can be great inner resistance to anything that threatens its purpose. Even during calm times, the mind can start to fabricate scenarios and conversations that never happened (and probably never will happen!) just to stay active. Trying to make yourself think of nothing or something else can actually create a bounce back reaction and make you think those same thoughts with even more intensity!

So what can be done? Simply raise the level of your consciousness and watch your thoughts. Don’t judge, just watch and try to trace back and understand who is creating these thoughts.

Calm is stillness. Stillness is peace. Instead of fighting the quiet times, embrace them with gratitude, for these moments are gifts.

Namaste ;)

 

Photo source: my mobile phone ;) Santo Antao, Cabo Verde

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January 26, 2017

ATTACHMENTS

Life can get heavy when we bear the burden of attachments and entanglements to Earthly things.

As I think back to almost a year ago when I sold and gave away pretty much everything I owned…and moved to Cape Verde with only two pieces of luggage…I better understood liberation. For so long, I felt like I couldn’t move or make big changes because I would have to deal  with all of my stuff…literally physical stuff. I was bound to these things in a way that went beyond ownership. It entangled my mind and emotions to consider what I would have to do to deal with all of the stuff. I had so much energy tied up in those things and I didn’t even know it.

A life of simplicity is the highest goal because it helps avoid unnecessary pitfalls that come from dealing with truly meaningless stuff that feels so meaningful. It frees energy and gives you the opportunity to pursue more meaningful explorations.

But beyond things, attachment has many forms. To people, to circumstances, and to thoughts and feelings…we can easily become attached. We can become attached to a person we are in a relationship with…just as we can become attached to the idea that some other person does not deserve our forgiveness. Detachment is not automatic…it requires awareness.

Once we become aware of the possibilities beyond our limited perception, our desire to hold on to things wanes. We begin to identify with freedom. And peace. We are able to let go and be free.

 

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January 21, 2017

ON CHANGES AND DESIRE

As I grabbed my computer to write a post yesterday, it was unresponsive. After spending some time charging and working through various troubleshooting steps, I was forced to confront the fact that after 7 years of faithful service, my MacBook Pro might indeed be toast. I accepted that reality and went to sleep last night haha

Since I’m back on the island, I don’t have the luxury of popping by an Apple Store, so for now I must use other devices and be thankful that I have those available. While my thoughts yesterday were about hope and the awareness that we have more than we think we do (no doubt inspired by the inauguration of Trump which still does not feel completely real to me), today my thoughts about desires and changes.

I think simply because change is inevitable, there is no end to desires. In many ways, we want life to be stagnant. We want to keep a certain feeling, a certain love, a trusty computer, or beloved President, but that is not how life works. Change happens. And as a result, desires are born. We may want to go back to a desired past or create a desired future. We may want this thing or that thing…this person or that person… The point is we typically desire something.

We imagine having control over every situation. And we may fail to see the bigger picture and lack the vision to see how everything blends together perfectly. We may feel styimied because our plans have been interrupted, but what if that change was necessary to put us back on our true course? (I am facing this reality as my plans for today were to record sample podcasts on my computer, which does not appear to be an option at present. Maybe the direction was intended to be for me to pen my next book?! ;)

If we can look upon these unexpected changes as blessings in disguise, our perspective shifts. We understand there is a higher power at work and we trust that the Universe is for us and unfolding in a way that is happening for our highest good. While it is natural to have desires, we cannot allow our lives to be led by them. Instead, having a spirit of gratitude for all that we have and faith for all that will be revealed allows us to ease any anxiety we might feel.

In all things, if we can flow with the unfolding of events like water and do only what we need to do (when we need to do it), we can find great peace.  We must acknowledge how all of our needs are being met and be thankful.

Desires come and go, but (like thoughts), we must simply watch them. We have to avoid getting ourselves unnecessarily tangled in the drama of trying to force a way when peace is most often found by letting it go. We do what we can and realize that must always be enough.

Namaste.

 

 

Photo source: My mobile phone — Cabo Verde :)

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